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30 April 2009

21 March 2009

Tomoyo's song

In the night sky, they twinkle
The far stars of gold
The same color as the small bird
that looked up in my dream last night

In the sleepless night,
I sing this song alone
Together with the blowing wind,
I fly riding on my thoughts

In the night sky, it sparkles
The distant moon of silver
The same color as the wild rose
that was blooming in my dream last night

In the gentle night,
I sing this song alone
Let me sing with you tomorrow
Riding the wings of dreams

In the gentle night,
I sing this song alone
Let me sing with you tomorrow
Riding the wings of dreams

18 March 2009

You know the first thing I told myself when i arrived in Ateneo was "I don't belong here. I don't deserve this."

2008 was a bad year for me. And then comes 2009 showering me with all the good stuff. I know it's wrong to not feel good about a good year, but that's how i feel and i'm not gonna lie about it.

I just feel guilty for getting things I never even worked hard for. Exams, grades, awards... What about them? They want this more than I do. They deserve this more than I do. I'm less capable of making myself into a better person than they are.

I've always been indifferent, yet the things that come say otherwise.

"You fit in like a glove, ate" Dad told after watching me make myself comfortable. In the inside I just wanted to tell him that I don't. I never have. Anywhere. The thousand times he told me "I fit in", the million times I wanna tell him "I don't". The million times I want to tell everyone who believes in the good of me, "I don't"

I just wish I did.

14 March 2009

in the end, we think about the beginning

i wanna go back to my first and true love

18 February 2009

Hearts day

14 February 2009

Some people want to fill the world with silly love songs

Well what's wrong with that?

Answers. Answers. I live in regrets.
Always what ifs and maybes.

I look at you like a child in a glass museum. I stare in awe as I wonder how long till I could touch you and make you mine.

09 February 2009

A cry for help

I thought I was doing well but i just wanna cry now.

08 February 2009

Let me hold you for the last time, it's the last chance to feel again

07 February 2009

strange how hard it rains now

The year is almost ending. It's ironic cause i'm seeing things slowly fall apart. It's late and it's gonna take awhile for dawn to break. I don't want things to fall back to place like nothing's ever happened for the sake of parting.

Everything's changed. Keeps changing. Nothing's gonna be like it was before no matter how hard we'll try.

I'm not against the idea of reconciliation. It's just not fair to act like we skipped things that have happened in order to feel the way we want to.

30 April 2009

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